I’m feeling rather poorly – still. The whole thing started a week or so ago and I had hoped that it would get better by itself. Being sick is totally out of question for me usually – I have a pretty good immune system and hardly get sick at all. But recently, basically everyone was ill in some way or another – I was surrounded by stomach flu and severe colds and shingles and finally ended up with some sort of a flu, I guess. At times I could barely speak, I’m coughing all the time, and the worst thing about it is that I usually wake up by 5 or 6 in the morning and can’t get back to sleep because of my very disturbing headaches. Of course I’m not the kind of girl who goes to see a doctor very often (which seems to upset some of my friends a lot) because everything takes care of itself and I get better by simply trying to ignore it. Didn’t work this time, though, and finally my father, as well as Sonja and Bertina talked me into going to see the doctor. That wasn’t much of a problem, since I was awake early in the morning anyway… -.-
The result is, however, that I’m on antibiotics now, and on two or three other kinds of medicine, and got stronger painkillers which finally work. Good thing about it: it should be better soon. According to my doc.
Bad thing about it: my doc also made it clear that partying on New Year’s Eve will be totally out of question for me – she told me to stay in bed or on the sofa most of the time, take my medicine and take as much rest as I can.
Very bad thing about it: I was so looking forward to going to Bertina’s party on New Year’s Eve ever since she mentioned it a month ago, but instead of partying, my New Year’s Eve will be boring and lonely. I was looking quite forward to spending New Year’s Eve with most of my friends. But since I’m still infectious, that’s probably not a very good idea… Life just sucks sometimes.
Of course, I won’t stay home on New Year’s Eve – unless I don’t have the strength to walk around anymore. When I’m sick, I rarely make a fuss about it, and instead of sitting there feeling sorry for myself, I always need to do something. I haven’t been able to do much the past few days, though, which was kind of frustrating. Anyway, my mom’s gonna have raclette on New Year’s Eve, so I’ll probably go over and have some. I love raclette, with all those little pans and you can be so flexible and… well, and most importantly of course, I won’t have to spend my time completely alone. Only parts of it.
As I said, I hate doing nothing, especially when I’m sick because I always have the feeling that it shouldn’t be that bad, and that I shouldn’t be such a wimp and do something nevertheless. Half an hour ago, all of a sudden, I was so furious about being sick that I had a go at tidying up the kitchen very radically, so tomorrow will be started with the dishwasher being put on. It already looks a lot tidier now, even though it was just a matter of a few minutes. I am very confused about the things I can find in our kitchen. But it does look tidier, I’ll clean it up properly tomorrow and I suppose I’ll shout at anyone who’s trying to turn it into a mess again. Someone has to do it, after all.
It would be nice if that sudden motivation stayed for another few days – that way, I’d have something to do on New Year’s Eve, too, when everyone is out partying and drinking lots of alcohol, while I am left with only my medicine to hug. 
So, in a way: Always look on the bright side of life! =)
